People seem to shy away from the mentally ill, I get it. I can’t always trust my brain to do what’s right and I become impulsive, passive aggressive… All of my worst and best get magnified - the veil between my heaven and hell is thin.

If I can’t trust myself, how am I supposed to hope others will trust me??? In all of this, I keep thinking about Jesus and how HE didn’t trust man because he knew what was in us.

I really must only put my trust in God, and give benefit of the doubt for humanity… also Jesus said something about being shrewd as a serpent and innocent as a dove - just googled it - Mathew 10 something.

So, mental illness - for me - is isolating and lonely. Grateful for people who hang on while I do my best to hang on too.